The full hiatus from Facebook was short-lived. It is a daily internal struggle to put down the Facecrack "pipe". The addiction is something I have under the magnifying glass.
The compulsion is still there. I am still getting lost in the feed. I am still noticing how much it pulls me apart from the present moment. I am recognizing the heightened awareness of separation within the connection.
The most obvious positive difference is the shift from posting a lot on Facebook to posting moderately on Facebook while giving more attention to this blog space I pay good money to utilize.
I haven't received any external feedback (comments, likes, or shares), but that isn't entirely the point. The point is expression. Here I am, expressing.
Whatever is received is received and whatever isn't... isn't. That's for me to let go. When I post on Facebook, I expect "likes". If no one gives their seal of approval or comments or shares or supports in any way, the post feels ignored. Then, I have to let go of the personal feelings of perceiving being ignored.
When I post here, I don't expect anything. It would be nice, because who doesn't like positive reinforcement, but the post doesn't carry the same feelings of attachment, or abandonment. This helps me shift away from the neediness of Facebook social norms that I never really understood in the first place. I know Facebook and social media is an ingrained aspect of our society. I know that it is something with which I have to design my own relationship. Instead of allowing it to define relationships.
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