We moved with grand ideas that made sense. We would be buy an RV on they way to our "hometown" and live in a lovely RV park - camping the "good way" with facilities and pool. Highly rated. Very desirable. My entire life would be focused on self-healing with low stress, including doing a major cleanse, and starting a new aspect of my business.
He would go back to work where he was comfortable with people he knew. We would reconnect with our dear friends and life would take a shift into a less "busy" gear.
Only one of those things is happening: he's working where he used to work.
Otherwise, we're living in a hotel. Our only car died last night and we have NO idea how it died or why or what happened. (Wondering if someone switched a part in the parking lot while we were asleep or something.) The oh-so-healing pool is too cold to use and it has been shut down most of the time we've been here. I've used it once. In this search for a place to live that is affordable for one income, I've been met with run-down (like falling apart) and far away (like more than 45 minute commutes) and very strange (like wouldn't give me their name or location) and unpleasant (rude, mean, confusing, overly busy) apartment, home, and property managers - landlords.
"Train your mind to see the good in every situation."
Ok, we have clean towels delivered to our door. That's nice.
We can diagonal-sleep in a big king-sized bed. Roomy.
We have walls and electricity and running water and conditioned air. Comforts.
We have access to a laundry facility. Clean is good.
We have internet access, even if it is better coming from the restaurant with free wi-fi next door than the hotel's free service.
WE HAVE EACH OTHER! IN PERSON! That's a big deal and we voice our thanks for that every single day, almost every conversation we have together.
We have food. Thank goodness we went to the Lebanon Farmer's Market before driving around looking for places to live last night. Otherwise, we'd have to order pizza, or eat at a Fast Food place within walking distance. Hurray for farm-fresh organic eats!
We have some money. You know problems in this society are fixed by a handful of money and greased by a smile.
There is more money on the way. Again, the fixing and the greasing may commence.
We risked big when we left our comfortable spot in Arizona and we're not reaping the benefits we'd hoped. We're doing our best to follow our dreams, intuition, and inner guidance, with faith, love, and determination. There is something to be said for that. We can feel some sense that we're on the right path, but to where?!
Here's what other people said about risk:
- If you are not willing to risk the unusual, you will have to settle for the ordinary. – Jim Rohn
- Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit. – e. e. cummings
- Yes, risk taking is inherently failure-prone. Otherwise, it would be called sure-thing-taking. – Jim McMahon
- You can measure opportunity with the same yardstick that measures the risk involved. They go together. – Earl Nightingale
- The only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open. – Chuck Palahniuk
- Life is inherently risky. There is only one big risk you should avoid at all costs, and that is the risk of doing nothing. – Denis Waitley
- The knowledge of the world is only to be acquired in the world, and not in a closet. – Philip Dormer Stanhope Chesterfield
- Decision is a risk rooted in the courage of being free. – Paul Tillich
- Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore. – Andre Gide
- People who don’t take risks generally make about two big mistakes a year. People who do take risks generally make about two big mistakes a year. – Peter F. Drucker
- Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor, catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. – Mark Twain
- To dare is to lose one’s footing momentarily. To not dare is to lose oneself. – Soren Kierkegaard
- When in doubt, make a fool of yourself. There is a microscopically thin line between being brilliantly creative and acting like the most gigantic idiot on earth. So what the hell, leap. – Cynthia Heimel
- Keep away from people who belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great. – Mark Twain
I guess what I'm trying to say is that we are unusual. We believe in curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, and every experience that reveals our spirits. Our adventure is failure-prone, and we knew that before pulling out our yardsticks and measuring the risk. This situation is cutting us open, for sure. We risked doing nothing where we were. Well, we're out in the world, alright. We certainly sought freedom in our quest. We've lost sight of the shore, and we're totally open to finding the new ocean. Maybe this is one of our big FOUR mistakes (I assume we're each allotted two). We have explored, dreamed, and discovered, and shall continue to do all three. We've dared and lost our footing, and we're making fools of ourselves, but we are brilliantly creative idiots, so what the hell. Nobody's telling us we "CAN'T" do anything, but we're also not asking for anyone's help, advice, or opinion. As Mr. Tony Tiger says, we're "GREEEAAAT!"